ok so i noe its been lyk 2 months since i've written here...its just that i prefer saying stuff instead of writing them down. but here's something i shall write down today.
so when you think about it, you usually want to know whats going on...if something is of course. dont u ever feel bad when ur the last person to noe something. especially if u think ur suppsoed to be the first. never minds that. what if nobody doesnt noe whats going on, especially u. but they dont need to noe cuz it doesnt hav anything to do with them. but it does with u. dont u think u shud hav the right to noe. but if nobody tells u bout it or doesnt want to because of complicated stuff, then i dont think you shud feel that something is wrong. seriously...i dont noe.
so these past 2 weeks, I've been feeling 'blank' and confused. i dont noe whats going on but i noe something is. even if i shudnt noe bout it...i noe its there. nd its scaring me. seriously. because i dont hav any answers. nd the sqssusetions keep haunting and haunting me. thats what makes me feel all sad these days. oh! another thing, everyone thinks im the HAPPY person. well, i am. i wud say that im one of the most happy person in our group. but every person has their down days. but nobody seems to notice that bout me. they think that im always the happy person. open ur eyes people! because its not enough for only me to open them. i need u... cant u see? plz...